I realize that I am behind in this post. After all, it is already halfway through the semester. I am beginning to see the end since I have only a little over a year left. This semester has gone really well academically. I've completed my OB rotation which I was set on hating and ended up loving. I've seen three births, one circumcision, and countless new babies. I found this rotation uplifting and more rewarding than my clinicals on the Med/Surg floors. I'm in my Peds rotation now, but since our hospital has a crappy pediatric floor, we haven't had any patients yet, so I've been going to asthma clinics and other random areas unrelated to Peds. So, for the first time in quite a while, I feel that I have my school focus where it should be and I'm happy with the results!
When I got back from Costa Rica I knew there would be new changes when I came back to Scottsbluff. Sure enough people changed, our lives changed. Ever since the semester has begun many of my friends have been distant, dramatic, and the tension is high. I think a lot of it has to do with many of them are near graduation and are nervous about life changes. Also, the typical professional school drama has intensified since last semester. I find it annoying and have started to distance myself as much as possible. The scary truth to all this madness is that three couples have split within the last two weeks. I find it sad that the strain of school has drove apart some of my favorite couples. I just hope they can get together. Unfortunately, I've had a rough relationship and breakup of my own, so even though I have fellow heartachers, we aren't an upbeat bunch.
It's interesting because in the nursing profession they stress that you must take care of yourself before you can take care of others. I really need to work on this because I use helping others to keep from helping myself. After I went home last weekend and had the best time I've had in a long time I had a little breakdown. It seems to me that when I'm at home things fall in a more positive place. That's because my major support system are my family and close friends at home. But, I finally figured out how to help myself a little bit here in Scottsbluff. I've signed up for fitness and spinning classes at the Y.
I started Monday and have attended three spinning classes, two pilates classes, and one aerobics class. I LOVE THEM! I had been running and biking a lot all summer and when I got to school, but I got all my friends to sign up with me and now we are helping each other physically and emotionally through a great sweat in class. I love my spinning class the most because I finally feel that I have the strength and endurance needed to have a rewarding workout. Exercise has always been a great stress release for me, and these classes have continued to help me. I try my hardest and all the results are because something I did. After feeling beat down for long enough, it is nice to have something I'm doing for myself that I can feel good about!
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Hayley dear, it sounds like you've had a great semester, aside from the breakup drama. I have spontaneous pre-graduation anxiety from time to time as well, with extended periods of time where I just need to hide out in my apartment and be alone. It's a battle trying to figure out who I want to be and how to get there.
It's great you've taken your anxiety to the gym, though! Finding quality fitness classes can sometimes be a challenge - lucky you for finding super ones.
So anyway, I'll be back in central time zone in a couple weeks... let's find a time to chat soon after that.
My stress relief is playing basketball with a tennis ball...Yes I'm weird.
As Mr. Kanye West has often stated. "tha the that that don't kill me...only makes me stronger."
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